valleyfair + heat = death

i swear i have died at work. at least yesterday. i felt bad because after work i was suppose to play mini golf with someone from my team and i didn't feel well. so someone took my place instead. i felt bad but there was no way i was going to play mini golf with out passing out. ugh. today i work 10 hours in the heat. good thing it is only suppose to be today and yesterday that is suppose to be super hot.

so...i found out i was the "other fat bitch" at corkscrew by my ex-team lead who got fired. i'm SO glad that i am a "controlling bitch" and the "other fat bitch" there. makes me hate myself even more that people are thinking and saying i'm fat. super glad. this is going to ruin my day. why do people have to say stupid shit and make people feel like crap. i have already been trying to figure out how to lose weight. and working at valleyfair is suppose to help however, now i am trying to figure out how to lose it more now. who knows. i'm tired of feeling like crap. i mean, i can put a smile on my face and say "oh i'm fine. who cares what people say." but really, if you think about it. you are going to listen to what people say.

i'm writing this before i go to work. seeing how i dont work until noon today but still. i have been eating healthier and i work at valleyfair so i am on my feet all day unless i am driving the train or i am in controls. so seriously. what is the problem. people say not to listen to what people are saying about you, but really how many of us do it anyway. .....ugh.

oh well...off to work. remember to DRINK WATER!