there are things that have been on my mind lately. why? who the heck knows. i wrote an important letter/message to the person that i can't seem to get out of my mind. and i feel better but i still seem to miss them. why? i really wish i knew why. i do wish that they would talk/answer me. but i guess patients is key. that is the one thing i do not have and i wish i did. anywho, yeah for some reason it has been driving me nuts. mer.
my head has been in the clouds lately and i cant seem to keep my mind from wondering. who knows why. way to many things going on. another one, is urgh. i go to worship, yes, i like going, yes, but i'm not completely with it. going makes me think about things in my own life. people mention death, funerals my mind goes straight to november. people mention love..well yeah you can guess that. i was asked to talk at worship about my vocation. why? i dont know why they picked me. i dont know why i am probably speaking. the problem is, i dont know what it is i am suppose to say. i'm not saying i dont believe in god, jesus or any of that. its just, i am not sure how much i believe right now. ya know? like, urgh...i dont know what to really say about this. i just need to get it off my chest i suppose?
i also feel like people worry to much about religion.. then again, i dont care if you do or do not believe in anything. because to me, you are still a person and you are probably an amazing person anyway. i think that people who push religion on the person they love is in the wrong. or even if it is a friend, i feel like they are in the wrong. i dont have a problem with them not believing because in my eyes, they are still wonderful and people are stupid for judging.
but ANYWHO another thing.. dont joke around about wanting to get sick. because then you will probably end up being sick and it will suck beyond anything in the world!
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