figure it out and maybe it will help

hey its been a while since i last wrote O.o i feel like i have been neglecting my blog right now. basically i had been studying for my exam in art history all week which was stressful. ugh. but after 11 hours i better have gotten a good grade on it! i guess i have had a lot of my mind lately. mostly because i have way to much to do and i feel like i need to relax but it is hard to do that. since spring break is coming. thank god. i need this break from campus. i mean, i am not staying home the whole week and that is my deal and not anyone else's problem. i mean, it is my life and i can do whatever i want with it right? i dont know. i have been thinking a lot lately and yes i know i think almost all the time but meh. i dont know. it sucks because i over think things and it is driving me nuts. i mean come on...ugh.

so i have been thinking of next years classes and i am trying to think of what to take but at the same time i dont know if i want to take photography. ugh i know its my major and i love it but the problem is, i cant afford it all and i have to have a computer that works with everything in photography but i am trying to figure things out. i am struggling with things and i wish i didnt have to struggle. i am trying not to ask people for help, mostly my grandparents and yeah. i dont know i guess i have to think or things.

ugh..so break is coming, and wednesday of break i am hanging out with my mom and brother at MOA and dont get me wrong i am pumped to hang out with them for the WHOLE day. i really want to go to MIA over break as well. but i can't seem to find anyone to go with me. and i asked my best friend but he is being stupid and wont really give me an answer so i asked another person and this said person means a hell of a lot to me and i really want this person to go with me because i feel like we need to spend a little time with each other. yes this said person is the person i have liked for a while and these feelings seem to be fading but i'm not sure if that is because i am trying to get over and move on. or if i have just been away from this said person enough that i am use to it? i do not know and i wish i knew. blah ugh. i wish someone would help me figure this out.

i can't think of anything right now and i know my mind is filled with things i need to spill out in my blog but right now i cant figure it out. maybe tomorrow will be better for my mind to write.

later blogger!