open yours eyes and see what is around you!

it seems that when i try to be open with people it gets turned around and i become the bad person. i never said someone was the bad person. i was just trying to get out what i normally can not say to people because it takes me a while to open up to people. i dont know. i tried doing something different and then it gets turned around that i am hiding behind something. i'm sorry if that is what it seems like but at the same time, sometimes it is easier  for someone to write it down then for someone to say it out loud in person with someone. whatever. i guess that is what happens.

have you ever felt like you need something to write about but you never know what to write about? yes, i am suppose to post part of my story today but since i am going out with my twin tonight i dont have time to write and think of a story to write about. sorry about that. but i dont know. sometimes i feel like venting to my blog isn't a good idea because of what people will think. i mean, what is the point of an online blog right? just to write everything down. yes i tend to complain about stuff and i realize that. but sometimes i just need to write things down and then come back to them later. it doesn't seem like i am a bothersome and yet i feel like this is the only way i can open up to people. is writing it all down. i was always the girl who bottled things up until the bottle decided it wanted to finally break open and then i would just break down. that is how i deal with things.

so i went down to work today. and a lot has changed just over the nine months of not being there. haha. i had to take a drug test. i hate those. it is so much easier for a guy to pee in a cup then a girl. all they have to do is point and shoot. i mean ugh. peeing in a cup is hard when you are a girl! HAHA! oh well. it was awkward because we have to empty out our pockets when we do it. so i am wearing my hoodie and i had to walk around work with my tank tops. yeah that isn't awkward at all. and then trying on my uniform. YES! i get to wear some HAWT AND SMEXY SHORTS! i dont mind the shirts though. this year i get dark blue shirts and then i get awesome ugly pants. man i am excited to work again. the only problem is paying for gas. haha.

anywho! i might post another blog today later. depending on when i get home from MOA with my TWIN! :D

later blog!!