day number eighteen

been super super busy lately... or well today. so we are having an art sale for photo guild, ceramics guild and works on paper. but yeah. it is sweet. i just want some of my prints to sell. i spent 10$ printing all the prints. it might not seem like a lot but it is. so yeah. i don't know. i feel like this whole blogging thing is boring to people. i haven't had anything to write about and idk. i have topics but i feel like i need to be in the right mood to talk about them. and i am guessing no one reads this blog anyway... so.... yeah. maybe after this i am going to be done with blogging for a while. i mean, i have tumblr and i am doing blog every day thing there but yeah... i with there was a way to tell if people are reading your blog. until tomorrow

day number seventeen

so i didn't have school today. but guess what. i had school work to do. seriously. being a photographer/art major is hard stuff. i spend two hours printing for tomorrow art sale. YOU ALL SHOULD BUY OUR PHOTOS! IT WILL HELP WITH SCOTLAND! :D i promise i will post longer ones but lately i haven't had time but to do this little blogs until tomorrow! :D

day number sixteen

so i just got home. seriously. i hate having long days. i am finally eating should be the words of my night. i was sitting in the library doing my sociology paper. WHICH I GOT DONE AHEAD OF MY SCHEDULE! :D and i was munching in life cereal. but anywho i am eating left over pork chops and rice. damn i am a good cook! :D i made dinner for emily and i yesterday. but yeah. my sociology paper was a book review (pretty sure i did it wrong eeeeeeek) and the book was called the beauty myth and it was interesting. to the point of i wasn't comfortable reading it. okay i lie. i skimmed it. because the paper could only be 8 pages long. and i had to put my own social understandings in the paper and it would end up being a 12 page paper if i went into full detail on whatnot. but yeah. more on that later. i am tired of typing. i spend 3 hours on my paper tonight and i am tired. i am tired of looking at my computer. i will talk more about the book later. until tomorrow!!! :D

day number fifteen

okay. really, the weather NEEDS to decide what it wants to do. if it rains i want it to storm. at home they had tornado watches and had thunderstorms. :( it sucks i want a storm so bad. god i have NOTHING to talk about. my mind is going a mile a minute and i have no idea what to put down on the page. i have things that i want to talk about but i haven't found myself typing about any of them. however. this week is going to be hella busy. i am going to try to get my final papers done tuesday. also. I DONT HAVE FINALS! :D i have final papers. and optional finals. haha. okay hold it. i have a "final" in sociology. basically it is an essay final. so i don't count writing an essay as a final. but woooooo!!!!!! :D no finals, only final projects and papers. and optional finals. (which i might take, everyone likes extra points) until tomorrow. :D

day number fourteen

once again short. my finger has been hurting a lot today. i don't know if it is because i keep using my finger or something. but yeah. it is super hard to type and i wish i didn't have to keep it wrapped all the time. but yeah. i promise i will post something longer once my finger is completely healed. i mean i have 2.5 papers to write and typing is HARD. homework. why you make it so i can't go hangout with him?! seriously. i told my friend i would come over and hang out/bug him tonight but that failed because of homework. BUT i did go outside on this beautiful day before i got super cloudy and helped a friend with her photo homework. until tomorrow. :D

day number thirteen

i feel like until my finger is completely healed and i don't have to wear a gauze on my finger so it doesn't get grossly dirty these are going to be super super short. which i hate before i would rather type for aw ile. emily and i have been sitting in the living room since five watching random tv shows and movies. it just get hooked on one and BAM we watch a few hours of tv together. not going to lie. i like it when it is just emily and myself in the apartment. we don't have to have lights on and we can just sit and talk about whatever and it is super quiet if we aren't talking or watching tv. which is nice. until tomorrow!

day number twelve

so....this week needs to end. i seriously can't do anything because of my finger. i never realized how much i use my left hand til now. and this isn't my week. today i burnt my dinner. i NEVER burn things when cooking. so you know there is something wrong with me. okay. this is short again... sorry. i promise to sit down and write something soon.

day number eleven

this is going to be short. due to two things. one. i am tired as sin again. and two. i can't really type that well or fast right now. you see. being an art major is NOT SAFE. it is probably one of the most dangerous majors you can be in. why you might ask? well we play with sharp objects. and lately sharp objects are NOT my friend. i have a scar from a picture frame that is metal and NOW i have a gimp finger on my left hand. i never realized how much i use my left pointer finger until i started typing today. anywho. i sliced my finger pretty deep and long with an x-acto knife. so these blogs might be short until it is healed enough. once again. until tomorrow!

day number ten

i wonder if i get into the 20's if i will still type out the number or just put the number (ie. 20, 21, 22) so. to start off my week. it was hell. seriously today couldn't have been anymore stressful. it is either stress or just my body telling me to STOP MOVING and relax. seriously. isn't that what breaks are for? to relax. yeah right. my breaks are never relaxable. i didn't sleep much when i was home. i think i have a cold on top of allergies. it is just insane and i just want to sleep. going to kickboxing today was a pain in the ass. i couldn't breath and i am super sore today for some reason. probably the lack of sleep, plus the allergies/cold thing and yeah. who the hell knows. all i know is i WANT TO SLEEP or well. i just want the semester to be over with so i can go have fun in Scotland/Ireland and come back, finish my photo class. and do whatever the hell i want during the summer. aka. going to valleyfair with the girls from scotland and yeah. so my roommate just posted a video on my Facebook page. it was cool because it had JOSH HUTCHERSON in it basically. these girls stalked him at a baseball game. but he is cute. .... no wait. he is hawt. haha. but yeah. i was going to vent about something today seeing how my day was crap but i haven't had the energy or time to just sit and write what i want. which is why these have been super short lately. until tomorrow! :)

day number nine

i'm back on campus. hell to the ya! i have been working on homework since i've been back. seriously. NOTHING is unpacked and it will stay that way until tomorrow probably. yes i am lazy. but i am tired and i am still working on homework basically. i am just waiting for people to get back from dinner and work so i can finish up my project. sort of. have i ever told you that SELF PORTRAITS suck beyond anything? yes they do. a photographer is never really in front of their own camera. it is super weird but i am doing a self portrait, well three, for my final project. so yeah. wednesday my grandpa goes in for this heart thinger that i can not spell so i am not even going to try. but basically it is this thing, that goes into his heart and is suppose to open up valves or something. the problem is. it is a SUPER risky process. he could end up having a heart attack while they are doing it and yeah. then i found out he has DNR which basically means they are not allowed to put his heart back to normal. aka. he would end up dying from the heart attack. i'm nervous. but i am so busy that i will probably be like "oh yeah he had that thing" if i do not get a phone call before then. i swear if i get a phone call saying that someone died in my family i will be pissed. okay no. if i get a call saying my grandpa died. yeah.... that wouldn't be pretty. so. sneezing. I HATE IT. i hate sneezing when i am driving. i feel like i am going to die. especially during rush hour i hate it. i mean. COME ON texting and driving is dangerous but so is sneezing. they do not teach you that in drivers ed. but they should! your eyes are closed for a second. a lot can happen in a second!!! but seriously. i hate sneezing. i feel like that is ALL i have been doing lately is sneezing. stupid allergies making my head act all funny and crap. until tomorrow. hopefully something fun happens! :D

day number eight

happy easter. i am probably going to make this one short because i am overly tired and i just want to sleep. but yes. nothing special happened over easter. other then my parents/aunt and uncle had an adult conversations. aka. an adult conversations without the adult children. we had a piñata it was a duck in a shell. my uncle pushed it into my nose and it hurt really bad so i took the blind hold off and smack the crap out of it. aka. one hit and the candy went flying. haha. the funny thing, i put the candy in the piñata. so... i just finished editing my first paid photo shoot. i am excited to give her the cds with the images on them. i am going to keep editing them though. so it should be fun. :) like i said. this is short. i really don't have anything to talk about. so yes. til tomorrow.

day number seven

okay today basically sucked. i am serious. i am so tired. i wonder if it is because i didn't shower today. but oh well. some funny stuff happened today. my mom and i went to breakfast and we were sitting there. and this group of high schoolers came in laughing. well lets say they all were probably drunk last night, and basically the first person who passed out/fell asleep was screwed. they shaved his head. and left chunks of hair on his head. and then sharpied his face. i felt bad but at the same time i don't. if you drink in high school there is something wrong with you. i mean, yes i am someone who drank underage but seriously. i waited until college. so last night i went to applebees with some friends from high school. well lets just say all we talked about was sex, sex and more sex. i don't mind talking about sex. hell i enjoy talking about sex. but we don't need to talk about it in a public place. and the funny thing. i was the only one there who doesn't fuck around with guys. i mean, yes i have been that girl who makes out with boys who have girlfriends. but that is something else. and i do flirt/cuddle and hold hands with guy friends. or well a guy friend. but who knows. it is fine. i just don't think we should be talking about it in public with a TON of people around. talking about sex is fun. i can talk about it with my best friends and even my mom. (yes i talk about sex with my mom and it isn't awkward. yay us!) today my mom and i made easter dog cupcakes. they were suppose to be sheep but seeing how my mom and i do not like uncooked marshmallows or gum drops we made them into dogs. they are yummy. at first we were like "they are bi-ractial and black" (cookies and cream chocolate and milk chocolate) we thought it was super funny. but that could be me. so have you ever had dreams about someone you are about a lot? well i have and it drives me INSANE. because this person means the world to me and if i didn't go to school with this person after high school we wouldn't be friends and i don't know what i would do without this person. seriously. oh well. so to finish off my sucky day. i have allergies. and having my cat shed a lot doesn't help (not allergic to my cat) and i have had a headache all day from my science being closed up. it got to the point of i would breathe and i would get dizzy. it sucked. my face is super warm so now idk if i have a fever or not. because my body temp is slightly cooler then normal people. due to me being a premature baby. oh well. haha. hopefully tomorrow is better. well yes. last but not least. i just want to say. don't let people get you down. seriously. people are going to be jerks and they are going to change things on you no matter what you do. don't doubt yourself for a minute. if you know you are suppose to do something then do it. having a major because you love it doesn't matter. you are suppose to be in that major because you love it. believe me. it has happened to me. i let this one person get to me (sometimes more and sometimes not in my major) but it gets better.

day number six

i decided in order to keep track of my blogs. i am only going to name them "day number ____" because it is easier. haha. i have been forgetful lately so that is why. so today i did my first photo shoot with children. i had a 12 year old girl, a 10 year old boy. a 2 year old girl and two one year olds (twins) it was hard. but we got some good prints. :) i am excited to edit them and finally make my Facebook page. but i haven't figured out a name for my photography. i mean, my name is boring. also! I AM NOW AN OWNER OF BATMAN FLIP FLOPS! HELL YA!!! :D sorry this is super short today. i am going out with friends soon and i still have to go put gas in my car. but yes. i will blog later !! (duh)

day number five

hey y'all! so today i got up super SUPER early to take my brother to school. he's pretty cool so i figured i'd be nice and take him to school. i had to get up at 6:40AM and i haven't gotten up that early in SO LONG. but anywho. i took him. went to my grandparents. started my laundry and showered (yes you wanted to know about my morning.) then i went and BAM hung out at the bus company with my mom and her co-workers who like to make fun of me. haha. then i went to lunch with my mom and one of her guy coworkers. it was funny because my mom left to go back to work and left me there with him. he's pretty legit. makes fun of me and what not. but yeah. there is a couple at my moms work who likes to try and get him in trouble. and he gave me ride back to my car and when i got out of his truck his couple gave him the meanest look ever. haha. okay. one. he's forty three. two. i'm pretty damn sure he is into my mom. three. yeah no. he's the same age as my dad. and finally number four. i like guys who are a few years older then me. not two times my age. haha. so. i made chicken taco salad tonight. it is pretty damn good. i'm a good cook i'm not going to lie. seriously. i will brag about it because i know if you give me something new to make i will make it and it will be ten times better! but yeah. OH! AND I BOOKED THE HOTEL FOR IRELAND TODAY!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D you have NO IDEA how exciting this is! that just means we are just one step closer! it turns out to be about $70 a person. but really that isn't super bad. the hotel is about a 42 minute walk from the center of Derry Ireland, yes it is also called Londonderry. but still FRECKING IRELAND!! :D

day number four

well day number four and i have things to talk about! other then i seriously hate chem. it is so boring during lectures. today i couldn't focus in class and maybe it is because i knew i was going home today. so yes. i am home now. but yeah. nothing has happened at school since yesterday so nothing to report on that. the drive home was boring. it is so boring. they need to have a dinosaur or something in the middle of a field to make the drive more interesting. or just something to look for! so i am home. and dear lord. i am not even gone for a month and BAM shit hits the fan while i am gone! i am like "WOAH! WTF?!" basically a lot has happened when it comes to my family. my cousins (note: i do not get along with any of my cousins, expect one who lives in Virginia)have been driving my mom insane. well my cousin who is forty and lives with her. then i found out the cousins on my dad's side of the family are being stupid and basically giving up on things. one isn't graduating high school this year. and one dropped out of college basically and another one goes to a different high school then the one they went to at the beginning of the school year. WTF?! seriously. see what i mean. shit has hit the fan. haha. i also found out this week, tuesday i think. i just forgot to post about it. the lower chamber of my grandpas heart isn't working. i talked to my dad about it and basically it sucks. people have asked me "why is it so important to you that you know about your grandpa's conditions?" well i will tell you. my grandparents are my world. as much as they annoy the crap out of me somedays they are my life. my grandparents have helped me so much through middle school, high school and college. they sat down with me and worked on my homework with me and have even paid for a lot of my trips that i have gone on. they are giving me money for scotland and what not. my grandpa's heart isn't healthy. it hasn't been for the longest time. and just thinking about losing my grandpa makes me sad. i am the only grandchild that can argue with him and fight with him. if anyone else does, they get in trouble. but who knows. he hasn't been working because he just got back from the hospital not to long ago. the last time i was home so spring break. but yeah. this is the short version of everything. to tired to get into detail. sorry. but until tomorrow! :D

day number three

okay not going to lie. lately i have been hating on photography. but truthfully, it has just been super stressful. seriously. last weekend was the first weekend i was able to sit and do nothing. i watched four movies on netflix in two days! i mean, i didn't have art homework. i didn't have to do anything with photography. i did, because i went out and shot for myself. which i haven't been able to do in a super long time. but yes. today was sort of one of those days where i was like "seriously! PHOTOGRAPHY NEEDS TO DIE!" i got a project back and no matter how hard i try i feel like i am not doing the best. but yes. before you say anything i already asked about things to do to get my grade where i want it to be. so have you ever had those days where you just hate the world? i seriously think i have been having to many of those days and there are certain people that are in different worlds. like my best friend, he has been part of the world i have been hating the last few times and i feel bad about it. the funny thing though, after we finally sit and talk about whatever is going on we end up talking for hours. and when i mean hours i mean HOURS. i was over at his place by 9:00pm yesterday (i hated the world yesterday ... mondays are just bad days lately) and i didn't really say much to him until about 11:00pm. i mean, we talked a little. like said comments towards what we were talking about but nothing more. and then after his roommate (my friend) went to bed we sat in his room and talked about a lot of things until 1:30am. and after finding out about the juried show (hated the world that day haha) we ended up talking from maybe 11pm until 2am. seriously. this is why i call him my best friend. i can ignore him while at his house and then finally we talk about things. for example. i call him an "ass" or even an "asshole" and he doesn't care. because he can tell when i am being serious or not. how he tells i have no idea but whatever. he is basically my "life" when it comes to people to talk too. and NO we are not dating. haha. people ask me that all the time. but no, we have a weird friendship but no we are not dating. i did have a huge crush on him in high school. yes i went to high school with him and then we ended up at the same college together. not because i wanted to go to the same school as him. we have a great art program here. i didn't want to go to MCAD because well... ew. but yeah. he is my best friend, we have a weird friendship. now you might be asking what is so weird about it. okay. one. friends don't flirt. two. friends don't hold hands and cuddle after drinking (shut it. we are not that drunk. we remember everything that happens) and three. friends don't give hugs every time they see each other (when it comes to a guy and girl. girl and girl that is different) but yes. there is your little history of me and my friend who will remain nameless. haha!

day number two

yesterday i talked to my grandma. because well, i had to call to tell my grandpa i had FRIED GREEN TOMATOES!! :D hell to the ya! haha. if you do not get what i mean, (which many won't) there is a movie called fried green tomatoes which is my grandpa's favorite movie. the sad thing, i am the only grandchild who will watch the movie with him. it is a super long movie and it is a wonderful and beautiful movie that i think everyone should watch! but i made my grandparents laugh when i told them. i think it is important for me to even call them a few times a week just to see how things are going. but who knows. so i hate mondays. seriously. i hate them. they are probably the worst things ever. for the last few mondays they have been shit. not going to lie. they are probably the shittiest days i have had in the longest time. not one monday turns out to be good. today, i found out i have to have a mock up of my final project by the 11th. problem is. the "models" i need are all going home over easter break and i have NO WAY of printing or taking pictures of them! so i have no way of figuring it out and i am probably going to change my final project so i can work on it over break. so now i get to email my professor with another proposal for something else. i feel overwhelmed and what not. plus lately photography hasn't been my favorite subject. i entered a juried show and i didn't get in. i mean it would be fine. i wouldn't be upset about it (still) if this other girl didn't enter and got both of her pieces into the show. it just sucks and it is hard because i just want to be noticed at an artist. i want to be noticed as someone who is great at what they do and what not. oh well. in sociology today we talked about sex and relationships. mostly about sex. because sex is fun apparently. gotta love sociology!

day number one

well it is april, and a friend of mine and myself are going to try blogging everyday once again this april. i think this time it will be hard to remember to write something everyday. seeing how i have been failing at the whole blogging thing anyway. just haven't had time to write and when i do i can't think of anything to say i suppose. well it is april 1st. and that means april fools day! i seriously can't come up with anything super cool. maybe its because we are older or something? who knows. pranks are so hard to come by. most of the time people end up hurt if they are super good. oh well. so today my aunt would have been 83 years old! just kidding, she'd only be 38 years old today. it is weird. its april first and everyone is like PRANKS and i am like, wow it would be my aunts birthday today and i would be like "ha aunt jen, you are so old today! you are 83 years old!" and i'd probably get her something for old people. okay, so every year on her birthday we'd tell her, her age. however since her birthday is april first we switch the numbers around. so when she turned 30 we told her she was 03 and if i remember correctly we bought her something for a 3 year old. but yes. haha. i must say, the weather lately has been AMAZING! it's been warm, sunny, and beautiful. the last two days i went for a walk in the woods. the first day i went with my friend from photography and we took our camera out. the only sucky thing, our shoes were full of clay. no wonder they call us clay county. haha. but anyway. friday we went out around 5pm and the sun was just starting to go down and it made shadows super amazing and beautiful on nature. and yesterday i decided to go out on my own and explore a part of the woods that i haven't explored. so speaking of photography. i entered a juried show. and well i didn't get in. it sucks because this girl (who no one likes in our class anymore) entered all because our professor told her too and she got her work in. both of her pieces. and now, we get to hear about it for ever. it has become a problem it seems because she doesn't realize how annoying she is and how she treats everyone else. she seriously makes everyone hate photography and feel like crap. for example. me. after i found out i didn't get into the juried show and she did i seriously wanted to give up on photography. i was going to, but i love the art more then anything. it just sucks. oh well i think if she says one thing about it i might flip shit. haha i am thinking of starting a new blog, when i go to scotland. i'm not sure if i should do it on here or on tumblr. or even both. it shouldn't be to hard to keep both of them up. tumblr it is a little easier to upload pictures. but then here it is probably the same. who knows. but i suppose. until tomorrow! :D